I AM BACK

I am back after too long. I finally bought me a notebook, I gave up the Blackberry (I don't know about you but I hated it) soo back in business. To update my health status I am not doing much better but the doctors have made me much more comfortable with a drug name Robinul it has allowed me to be able to leave the house alot more but some days I do have to preplan my outings and I have to know where the restrooms are, After almost 2 years of suffering with a pancreas problem I think I can safely rule out cancer but I did not have a biopsy of the pancreas the specialists at Cleveland say I don't have enough markers to warrant taking a chunk out of a vital organ (quote) but keeping my weight up has been a nightmare I weigh 93lbs down from 150lbs but I am normally running 96lbs like 3 pounds are going to make a difference I eat like a hog I take supplements and my snacks are really small meals I miss my old body, my skin looks like drapes my hair is thinning to where its hard to style my face is so wrinkled I look 90 years old The doctors are waiting for me to reach 120lbs before they can remove a bowel blockage that they feel is causing the pancreas to be deficient I have Barrett's esophagus a hiatel hernia a bulge in the stomach called a ditickulum(spelled wrong) I refused to go to the National Institute of Health in Maryland I told the 3 specialists I am seeing if Cleveland Clinic one if the worlds best hospital can't help me I'm not going to Maryland (my fear of being alone would probably kill me that far away from home so I take 8 different kinds of meds a day and I have left it up to the Lord, He knows the outcome, But my life is happy, I have decisions to make but all decisions have been tabled until my brain gets more fat I didn't know our brains need fats but doc said don't make any major decisions my church attendance has greatly been affected it is far to embarrassing to get up during the service to go to the restroom staying in there a long time and coming out pale as a goast sweating and so weak I feel I can't make it back to my pew my church is so understanding but lets face it no women wants people to know about an annoying restroom problem. As soon as I learn to post pictures I sure will. Thanks for all my followers who have probably wondered what happened to me I appreciate you all Love Becky

Happy Birthday

Today is my friends daughter's Birthday the sad part is her daughter has went on before her to be with the Lord and also her Father, While her daughter and Husband celebrate with Jesus She is left to yearn and with good reason. If I can take my friends awsome strength and grow from it I think she would consider it a gift sorta like a Birthday gift so I'm going to remember my friend by taking every moment of this day to Thank God for my family and this too can give me an example to follow to help me with unresolved grief in my own life. Thanks my Friend for your Faith I love you

November

This is a great month,I love to cook so Thanksgiving dinner is always a treat I always get preparations done early,I watch grocers ads for the best price I have always bought Honeysuckle White turkey but tasted a Butter ball last year that was baked at 250• For hours it was probably the best I've tasted so I just may break tradition this year. - love my own personal tradition never having children I've always had an intimate dinner for 2 unless I have the clan over and the clan stopped about 5yrs ago but I always buy everythin early then the night before Thanksgiving I put music on and bake the pies and other deserts then I put the turkey in the oven before going to bed then its done when I get up I then make the stuffing separately but use the drippings every year its a success. I remember when my niece was probably 5yrs old she was spending the night when I was washing the bird I sat him up like a baby and danced him around-she remembers that still today and she's in her 30s we pretended we had our own cooking show gee I could have been rich Paula Dean I had the idea before food network....Fond memories of Thanksgiving past. Now I need to check my spices and head to the Amish spice store where I buy bulk

Fall Harvest

October is such a beautiful month the colors of the trees are bursting rich hues.apples are plentiful,pumpkins ready to start baking pies, what a wonderful season and I am thankful my health has maintained some, my weight is still way to low 96lbs and I struggle to keep that but the medication has allowed me more freedom than last fall. God is good I am so happy to be a christian.I will probably post more now that I figured out how to do it on a blackberry Now to learn to post pictures that's another story

MAYBE I LIKE MY NEW SISTER, SHE HAS A BALL

when Taffy came to live us, Spanky hated her he was very jealous. I bought a beach ball for him.....but she wanted to play with it, They both ran it around the back yard playing ball for an hour, now he's coming around, he's still jealous, wants her food, drinks her water bowl dry when he has his own, but I think they may become good friends. Patience worked.

MY RED BIRD FRIEND

Here is my little red bird 2009 picture, I have his picture from 2008 also, He comes everyday year round and honestly he acts tame, He brings his lady with him but she flys away from the kitchen window when I come to the window. This winter a placed a live rose in the window for him to see just to remind him Summer is coming. I bet I have around 20 Red Birds in my yard, the feed in the feeder is thistle, I'll post a finch next, at feeding time the entire feeder is full of finches, the Red Birds run them away and I have 2 Dove's that come when all the other Birds are done eating or they eat off the ground, The Dove's seem to let the other birds eat first. God has created the most amazing creatures, I am truly a Bird watcher. If I could I would join a Bird watcher group but due to my health I could never do all the walking. Isn't God Great!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM

Happy Birthday Mom, I know I am 2 days late, but I wanted to upload a picture and I couldn't until today for some reason. Mom I remember all the dumb presents I use to by you, and I remember all the great presents you bought me. I'm sure you had a WONDERFULL BIRTHDAY WITH THE ANGELS. I Miss you horrible, I know I will see you again, but it wasn't on your Birthday. Mom I am so glad you were born. I Love You Forever