I AM BACK

I am back after too long. I finally bought me a notebook, I gave up the Blackberry (I don't know about you but I hated it) soo back in business. To update my health status I am not doing much better but the doctors have made me much more comfortable with a drug name Robinul it has allowed me to be able to leave the house alot more but some days I do have to preplan my outings and I have to know where the restrooms are, After almost 2 years of suffering with a pancreas problem I think I can safely rule out cancer but I did not have a biopsy of the pancreas the specialists at Cleveland say I don't have enough markers to warrant taking a chunk out of a vital organ (quote) but keeping my weight up has been a nightmare I weigh 93lbs down from 150lbs but I am normally running 96lbs like 3 pounds are going to make a difference I eat like a hog I take supplements and my snacks are really small meals I miss my old body, my skin looks like drapes my hair is thinning to where its hard to style my face is so wrinkled I look 90 years old The doctors are waiting for me to reach 120lbs before they can remove a bowel blockage that they feel is causing the pancreas to be deficient I have Barrett's esophagus a hiatel hernia a bulge in the stomach called a ditickulum(spelled wrong) I refused to go to the National Institute of Health in Maryland I told the 3 specialists I am seeing if Cleveland Clinic one if the worlds best hospital can't help me I'm not going to Maryland (my fear of being alone would probably kill me that far away from home so I take 8 different kinds of meds a day and I have left it up to the Lord, He knows the outcome, But my life is happy, I have decisions to make but all decisions have been tabled until my brain gets more fat I didn't know our brains need fats but doc said don't make any major decisions my church attendance has greatly been affected it is far to embarrassing to get up during the service to go to the restroom staying in there a long time and coming out pale as a goast sweating and so weak I feel I can't make it back to my pew my church is so understanding but lets face it no women wants people to know about an annoying restroom problem. As soon as I learn to post pictures I sure will. Thanks for all my followers who have probably wondered what happened to me I appreciate you all Love Becky

Happy Birthday

Today is my friends daughter's Birthday the sad part is her daughter has went on before her to be with the Lord and also her Father, While her daughter and Husband celebrate with Jesus She is left to yearn and with good reason. If I can take my friends awsome strength and grow from it I think she would consider it a gift sorta like a Birthday gift so I'm going to remember my friend by taking every moment of this day to Thank God for my family and this too can give me an example to follow to help me with unresolved grief in my own life. Thanks my Friend for your Faith I love you

November

This is a great month,I love to cook so Thanksgiving dinner is always a treat I always get preparations done early,I watch grocers ads for the best price I have always bought Honeysuckle White turkey but tasted a Butter ball last year that was baked at 250• For hours it was probably the best I've tasted so I just may break tradition this year. - love my own personal tradition never having children I've always had an intimate dinner for 2 unless I have the clan over and the clan stopped about 5yrs ago but I always buy everythin early then the night before Thanksgiving I put music on and bake the pies and other deserts then I put the turkey in the oven before going to bed then its done when I get up I then make the stuffing separately but use the drippings every year its a success. I remember when my niece was probably 5yrs old she was spending the night when I was washing the bird I sat him up like a baby and danced him around-she remembers that still today and she's in her 30s we pretended we had our own cooking show gee I could have been rich Paula Dean I had the idea before food network....Fond memories of Thanksgiving past. Now I need to check my spices and head to the Amish spice store where I buy bulk

Fall Harvest

October is such a beautiful month the colors of the trees are bursting rich hues.apples are plentiful,pumpkins ready to start baking pies, what a wonderful season and I am thankful my health has maintained some, my weight is still way to low 96lbs and I struggle to keep that but the medication has allowed me more freedom than last fall. God is good I am so happy to be a christian.I will probably post more now that I figured out how to do it on a blackberry Now to learn to post pictures that's another story

MAYBE I LIKE MY NEW SISTER, SHE HAS A BALL

when Taffy came to live us, Spanky hated her he was very jealous. I bought a beach ball for him.....but she wanted to play with it, They both ran it around the back yard playing ball for an hour, now he's coming around, he's still jealous, wants her food, drinks her water bowl dry when he has his own, but I think they may become good friends. Patience worked.

MY RED BIRD FRIEND

Here is my little red bird 2009 picture, I have his picture from 2008 also, He comes everyday year round and honestly he acts tame, He brings his lady with him but she flys away from the kitchen window when I come to the window. This winter a placed a live rose in the window for him to see just to remind him Summer is coming. I bet I have around 20 Red Birds in my yard, the feed in the feeder is thistle, I'll post a finch next, at feeding time the entire feeder is full of finches, the Red Birds run them away and I have 2 Dove's that come when all the other Birds are done eating or they eat off the ground, The Dove's seem to let the other birds eat first. God has created the most amazing creatures, I am truly a Bird watcher. If I could I would join a Bird watcher group but due to my health I could never do all the walking. Isn't God Great!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM

Happy Birthday Mom, I know I am 2 days late, but I wanted to upload a picture and I couldn't until today for some reason. Mom I remember all the dumb presents I use to by you, and I remember all the great presents you bought me. I'm sure you had a WONDERFULL BIRTHDAY WITH THE ANGELS. I Miss you horrible, I know I will see you again, but it wasn't on your Birthday. Mom I am so glad you were born. I Love You Forever

TAFFY

Here is Spanky"s new little sister, She came from the same Amish farm as Spanky but is really not related in any way. Spanky is a 3rd Generation Puggle and Taffy is a 1st Generation Puggle, She seems very smart, and if you have ever got a puppy from the Amish, they all seem to listen very well, She will be crate trained for at least a year, She won't be unsupervised while playing, she has a schedule where no food or water is given after 5:00 pm and she wakes about 6:30 am, I usually get up before 6:00 am. Every dog I have ever owned was housebroken within 3 weeks. I would never have a dog in the house that potty's indoors. Her eating schedule will change with age as well as trusting her alone. People think crates are mean but they become to think of them as a crib, Rocky and Abby were 10 and 11 and they both still used theirs to nap in. Training is key when you have dogs. But she's sweet.

UNCOMMON FAITH

I'm listening to Joel Osteen preaching on uncommon faith, He saying radical faith gets radical results, He tells a story of a little girl wanting to keep a new baby calf and her dad said no they don't need another calf, Jamie the little girl cried and pleaded with her dad to keep the soon to be born baby calf, Her dad said ok Jamie if the calf is born black we will keep it. Joel showed a picture of the new baby calf it was black and right between the calf's eyes was a white J. Jamie's faith and prayers were answered, she TRUELY BELIEVED the Lord would answer her prayers, and He did. Perhaps a marriage is ready to end, I believe in UNCOMMON FAITH. God can do what people cannot do, He also told of a little girl who had lost the tips of 2 of her fingers, the doctor told the father she would never have the tips of her fingers and no fingernails, The father told the doctor he was wrong, The doctor then told the Mother her dad wouldn't believe she would never have the tips of her fingers or fingernails. Well after time to heal her dad took her back to the doctor to remove the bandages and when the doctor removed the bandages he said Oh My God, I don't believe it, she has fingernails and the tips of her fingers had grown back to where she could use them. The doctor was amased, The father was not because he had UNCOMMON FAITH. God wants us to have believe that when things look impossible we need to have UNCOMMON FAITH.

WISE WORDS

Last year a friend of mine was giving me some advice about being my own person, it started when I had told her I called home to tell my husband I was going to stop in at Old Navy, he said no come home and I did, She said first why did I even call, I have a mind of my own I didn't need permission to stop at Old Navy. Well another piece of advice she gave me was to make friends, go visit a friend etc. Well I took her advice and I have made new friends, I have went places without asking for permission (I always invite him to join me) and I can tell you that's the best advice I could have heard at the exact time I needed it. Well today my FRIEND is sad, missing a child she lost in a tragic accident. WHAT COULD I POSSIBLY SAY, Nothing she hears will erase her hurt or longing for her daughter, other then saying I'm praying for you I wouldn't know what to say, But Thank the Lord she knows someday soon she will see her again, but it wasn't this morning and I truly feel so sad for my friend that I couldn't come up with some advice to give her like she did me at the exact time she needed it.

SISTER,S

Yesterday I had breakfast with my two sister's, What a BLESSING the Lord has given to me. Both has always been there for me in time of need, I will never be able to repay them for the help they both have given to me, but one thing for sure, I can't give them money, But I can LOVE THEM WITH ALL MY HEART. I would give them anything I have, I would sit with them when they are sick, But more important I can PRAY for them, We differ on religion, but I know they both Believe in God, to me they are where I was when I first got saved (They know nothing) like a little baby they need fed the gospel to grow, but, They don't see it that way. Isn't it interesting how different people interpret the Bible. But bottom line is GOD HAS TRULY BLESSED ME WITH 2 WONDERFUL SISTER'S. THANK-YOU LORD

CAT HEAD BISCUITS

These biscuits were made every morning for breakfast with gravy and fried apples, fried potatoes, eggs, bacon or ham, I think you will like them.
Cat Head Biscuits
2 cups self rising flour=I use Lily White
1/2 cup Lard
3/4 cup Buttermilk
Cut in shortening until it looks like corn meal

Add enough milk to make dough pulls away from the bowl.
Knead on floured surface 10 times or more
Pinch off 6-8 good size pieces
Roll into biscuits
Bake at 450 degrees for 15 miniutes
ungreased pan

LENDING A HELPING HAND

You have heard me say in past posts about helping others feel special who are down and out, I was Thankful I could help again yesterday. I was planning on going to church if I was going anywhere but my phone rang my cousin and their friend who lost his home 5 months ago needed transportation, in the last 6 months these 2 people lost their jobs, home, and when moved a month ago the neighbors shot his dog, Chris has worked hard and so has his brother and just can't seem to catch a break, due to circumstances Chris has no car and Paul's car has a bad transmission and their roommate also lost his job and home. Does it really matter why they don't have cars or lost their home, not to me, if I can help in anyway I will without judgement on WHY. Other family members have forgotten these boys because they drink=That's not why they lost their jobs, they never missed work, the job market is just really bad and both men had over 25 years at one place, All 3 men are alcoholics, it's soo sad to see 3 young men in their 40's struggling in this world without a car, without a job, and not much money, One has been to Edwin Shaw several times before and the result is always the same ( They go back to the bottle). But when our church went to The Haven of Rest we saw alcoholics who had turned their life around, and we also had a man join our church who was in the same spot as Paul and Chris but the Lord helped this man and his wife who worked for The Haven of Rest live a different life because they accepted the Lord as their Savior, and this inspires me to believe these men could someday do the same. but until then just like Christmas eve, I will share food, find them transportation to appointments, etc. I can't give them money I don't have any but probably wouldn't give money anyway to spend on beer. but for now all I can do is pray that people can see the good in these men beyond the bottle and that God can give them healing to help them with the darkness of drinking, it killed their Father and Grandfather, it seems lifestyles are mimicked, I can't do much to help them, even transportation is hard for me, I don't drive much, the grocery store and church has been about as far as I drive, but yesterday I was proud to help in an emergency. Perhaps today we could all PRAY for those who have a different life then we do, my prayer is not only God would heal their addictions but that we as Christians would help those who we see are down and out, some say dead beats, but I see them as ONE OF GOD'S CHILDREN. A smile, a hot meal, a ride to anywhere but a bar. But most important Respect and Love. People forget it is only by God's Grace we are not in their shoes.

GRADUATION

Congratulations Jenna and Matt=Job WELL DONE. I remember when I graduated back in the day we didn't have parties, I remember my friend and I walked to the pizza place in town and sat enjoying our very first pizza on our own. Back in my day we weren't allowed out of the yard until you graduated. Now I go by what looks like a wedding and it's a graduation party, I remember Terry Davis from church one day suggested we stop in at some of these parties and eat and wait to see how long it would be before we were tossed out, Terry is so funny, I don't think he ever did but knowing Terry one never knows. But I remember the class of 68, We had high hopes of changing the world, We were made to think we could do anything, Also at that time
the Hippy movement was strong, Woodstock would become one of the most remembered concerts of all time in the hippy movement. WOW MAN,COOL,PEACE,PEACE NOT WAR.LOVE. Oh yes I remember=paisley,long hair for guys, short twiggy hair cuts for girls.pot smoking,war protesting. How did we survive? I wouldn't want to go back but happy I was apart of the HIPPY MOVEMENT. Now the only thing hippy about me is my hip replacement lol.

GEEK SQUAD UPDATE

I took the PC to the Geek Squad and this PC memory is almost full and the battery is bad, lucky to even get on but wanted to say THIS COULD BE MY LAST ENTRY FOR AWHILE.

GOD BLESS AMERICA

ThankYou to all the Men and Women who are or have or will protect us. To all the branches of our armed forces I say THANK-YOU. In 1968 a good friend of mine Stan Armentrout was killed in Viet Nam, our High School mourned for years, my father served in world war 11 in the navy, where his ship was hit and went down but he survived, God Bless America and God Bless those who are willing to die for us to be safe.

My Baby's Senior Picture

Here is my last Baby to be a senior, Bre is the sweetest, BEAUTIFUL, intelligent, Baby I know. I love you Bre. In case the relatives don't this is Aunt Beck's great grand child, I love her the same as Tia and Michele, actually, Michele and I are cousins but feel more like sisters. I told you all us Jacksons are beautiful. Proud of you Bre

Goodbye Sweet Mother-in-law

Goodbye to my sweet sweet Mother-in-law, I wish I could have said Goodbye in person but it didn't work out that way, I wish you peace and happiness in Alabama, I have never known a sweeter person than you and Thank-You for all your cooking tips and unconditional love, Remember the cross stitch picture of the little mouse saying WHEN YOU GET TO THE END OF YOUR ROPE, TIE A KNOT IN IT AND HANG ON. As for my other blog
gers waiting to hear what the doctor said, She is happy with my health improvement



but not happy with my weight, I will have to call every Monday with my weight....hated it, but as long as I can make 100LBS I am good to go, Pray I can gain weight fast, I feel great, I eat
ALOT


=The most fattening foods I can find, but cannot seem to retain fats. Oh well, I guess I will just be a stick person, little old lady stick person, HEY AT LEAST I AM A PERSON. Better than dead lol

PC TOOK IT'S LAST BREATH

My old PC kept over heating so I tool it to the Geek
Squad and it would have cost too much to repair and due to the age, it would have been cheaper to buy one, but I was lucky and was able to borrow an old one someone wasn't using, OMGoodness after blogging and facebook and my space I missed it really bad, it is my window to the world. So I had 34 e-mails and I have to figure out how to log on easy as a guest on this PC. Happy To Be Among You Again

THANK YOU LORD

This little Bird looks like he is praising the Lord for me. The medicine the surgeon gave me WORKED, We had to adjust the dose, if I take it twice a day I get blurred vision (In some cases that's not so bad, Everyone looks pretty ha ha) but for the first time in a year I can eat and not run to the bathroom 20 minutes later. I pray it continues, the name of the drug is Robinul, if I can gain enough weight then surgery (Bowel resection) will be done when I am at a healthier weight, But just like this little Bird, I feel like throwing up both arms and PRAISE THE LORD. Thank-You for your prayers

Great Day

Today was a beautiful sunny day, I went with Floyd to Holmes county to visit a friend, we had a great time of fellowship, It felt so great to get out without it being a doctor appointment, but I did have to make sure a restroom was on the way, I tell you I would rather use an outhouse any day as to use a public restroom. Thank-You Lord for the Sunshine, The mushrooms popping up after the thundering and lighting, I hear that makes them pop out and I guess at Mt Hope auction you can sell them for alot of money. But just to forget for a day that I am sick, and that all phone calls were turned off only after my sister wouldn't get off the phone on the way down I finally said I am hanging up Marce I don't want to miss a thing.I needed today

NOT GOOD NEWS

I saw the surgeon today and the news was not good, she explained to me that the blockage or scar tissue is lying on my pancreas and bowel and that it's too risky so she said she wanted me to try another medication Robinul, she said that was her silver bullet what ever that means. She said the surgery would cause me to loose weight and that's not good, and one wrong move on her part I could die , I guess there is a duct involvement that if they nick it, I could be worse or die so I am to call her on Friday and on Monday to see if the diaharri slows down, My life is in the restroom, then I get so weak I sometimes crawl back to my chair, I'm talking about every 2 hours I have diarrhea which looks like I poured Crisco oil in the toilet, my body is rejecting fats. Bur on the GOOD side she said I am still healthy enough to have very shinny hair and strong finger nails and I guess if it were worse I would be having straw for hair and who knows what kind of finger nails I would have. But I will report to her on Friday and on Monday and then I don't know what to do. my brain is trying to keep my spirits up and while sitting in her office I thought if I lived in Ethiopia I would look normal ha ha= I am sader than sad

I WILL MISS YOU TROLL=GOODBYE

Tonight or I should say this morning I couldn't sleep so I surfed the net and found one of my sights I visit is leaving myspace.I met another American Indian but not from the same tribe my line comes from, but what a surprise to tell her goodbye and that I will miss her thoughts on religion. You can never have too many friends and this gal knows people I know. Speaking of friends we both know I would like to take this moment to remember Floyd Kerr who passed away last week, I liked the troll man, he helped me move and he was a sweet man. Rest In Peace Troll, Oh Yeah I'm sorry I called you Troll, your friends forgot to tell me they only call you that behind your back, but you will always be Troll to me, I already have a Floyd.

SICK

Well Friends, I'm sorry to say the medicine Cholestyramine powder to help my pancreas didn't work. My body for some reason will not tolorate it, SOO, I called the doc and she said not take it. That I think was my last hope for my weight loss, but I'm going to keep LOOKING UP, If there happens to be a doctor following my blog I could use some advice, I did go visit Hospice Tuesday, even the word Hospice scares me, but what a wonderful organization, I'll talk with them again next week, mainly to learn to live with the loss of my health among other things. Lord my prayer today is to JUST ENJOY YOUR BEAUTIFUL SUN SHINE

I'M NOT GIVING UP

Well....Friends my doctor appointment didn't go too good. The surgeon told me it was up to me whether she did the surgery, she said due to the risk she was going to leave it up to me.I said YOUR THE DOCTOR you should know whether or not to do it and she said she felt I needed the surgery but that it wouldn't fix me completely, or could make me worse, I exclaimed it couldn't be worse she said believe me Becky it could be worse, but she put me on a enzyme for my pancreas to try and absorb more fat, but (I"ve been there done that) but I told her I took an enzyme but thought it was sand she said OH Well Then We will try the powder form (I threw up the sand stuff last year) I stopped at CVS picked up the script only to come home and find IT'S THE SAME SAND I TOOK BEFORE . I called her and she said take it with juice instead of water and come back next week and if I haven't gained 20 lbs by then we would regroup. WHAT THE HAY am I going to do I said Doc if I couldn't gain 10 LBS in 2 years how in this world do you think I can do it in 1 week. She said not to worry the 20 LBS was a leeway for the weight I will loose after surgery GREAT i WILL WEIGHT 80 LBS. LORD HELP ME OR TAKE ME ONE MY MIND SAYS BUT MY HEART SAYS IN DO TIME, SO IN THE MEAN TIME I AM NOT GIVING UP.

TIME FOR SPRING CLEANING

OK girls, it's time we go thru our underwear drawer and bring out our spring and summer undies. You know just because some of us are older, maybe skinny, maybe fat, who cares a cute set of undies will make us feel better, I need to go thru my closets, and drawers due to weight loss I need all new clothes, we have alot of consignment stores for jeans etc but undies strictly NEW Victoria Secret, Twice a year they have a great sale and the satin strap bras I love and if you have to wear low rider jeans then you need low rider undies. (OK LADIES THAT ARE SHY) Christians are allowed to wear sexy underwear, who See's them? Out with the winter white out with the pink and yellow and pastels. Oh yeah I think we are supposed to clean our house too ha ha ha that's funny.

THANK YOU LORD FOR FRIENDS

What a wonderful surprise I had Thursday two of my friends came for a visit and brought me this beautiful Lily. Rita and Kay are two of my favorite people, they are the kind of people who work for the Lord and never complain, Rita use to manage the funeral dinners at church Connie took over when Rita started going to Florida for the winter. (People die in the winter too) and Kay is a long long time friend her husband and my family go back to the 60's. Thank you Lord for FRIENDS. WHAT A WONDERFUL TIME OF FELLOWSHIP

I'M SO DISCOURAGED

Today was a very bad day for me. Fear and discouragement is setting in. First I wasn't able to go to Easter service I remember singing in the cantada and honestly every word of our arrangment meant something to me, and if I can't sing in the cantada I love listening to the choir sing it, I Missed singing He Arose, even tho I sang it at home it;s not the same. But one week from yesterday the 20th I go to see the surgeon, I need a bowel resection and I have been testing for one year last month, I've had 3 endoscopy,, I have had 3 colonoscopy, a stomach scan, a MRI of the Breast (the stomack scan picked up a large spot on my Breast and nothing but an MRI would satify them I wanted a ultra sound. The MRI show a shadow on the film after 3 weeks of pure stress not knowing and (listen to this )when the scan picked up the spot 3 weeks later I get a letter telling me I failed my mammogram (What happened to bedside manners) then it took another 3 weeks to have the test and get the results, Thank God it was a shadow on the film, They have removed my gall blatter because it was only functioning at 10%, Then I have this huge blockage right at the spot where the stomach empties and the scar tissue is laying on the pancreas and bowel and stomach (Forgot I went to Cleveland Clinic for a biospy of the pancreas because one specialist suspected pancreatic cancer) So out of 4 specialist 2 say operate 2 say it's way to risky, they say I could end up worse or worse yet I could die, but I went from a size 14 jeans to a size 0 in 2 months, I eat 6 small meals a day (Not cheap) I drink Enlive apple juice supplements 4 times a day and I eat the most fattening foods I can to try and gain weight, I weigh 90 LBS sometimes 100LBS if I cram all I can to eat. . So when I saw this fairy looking discouarged I thought that does it I need to get this off my chest. I want to ask you to lift me up in prayer and ask the Lord to calm my fears, I am ready to die but to be truthful I have only lead one person to Christ and I am ashamed of that fact I should have won alot more. Thanks for listening.

SPANKY HATES HIS EASTER PRESENT

OK Don't laugh I can explain. Every spring the dandelions make beautiful yellow flowers in our yard BUT when the pretty yellow goes away they turn into long stems with little fly away thingies on them and they hit Spank in the face, Soo I thought I would protect his eyes with googles. OMGoodness he was so humiliated he dropped to the floor and would not move until I took them off I told him when I first had to get glasses I hated it too, but that didn't help. Shucks I thought I had the answer. Any ideas someone may have to help me out. And PLEASE don't tell me I'm crazy, I already know that. Oh don't tell me to treat my dandelions, I live in the country and I don't think the corn fields surrounding my house will mind.

TELL THEM BECKY SENT YOU

I always get so sad on Good Friday since I first heard what Jesus went thru on the cross, and for God who had to give up his only Son just so that I could be Forgiven of all of my sins and go to Heaven. Can you believe it, We did nothing to deserve this wonderful Grace, and Jesus did nothing to deserve the horrible punshiment He took for me and you. The crown of thorns I thought was bad enough but when our Pastor explained what a Cat of Nine Tails was and how the way they had Jesus feet crossed and His hands nailed, They stretched Him as far as they could, and in order for Him to breath He had to lift Himself up with his feet to get a breath only to fall back in the horrible position My Savior was in, The crowd threw rocks had Him, Called Him names, Spat on Him, He had to carry the cross they nailed him on, and it wasn't light in weight, He endured horrific torture for me and for YOU. If you don't already know that God is REAL and He sent His sinless Son to take away our sins, Even tho He was tempted in every way, to take our sins and pay for them so that sin could be forgiven. You have to believe this and if you have doubts in todays world that is understandable but the truth is This really happened, On Good Friday Jesus died for all of our sins and they buried him in a tumb and on Easter Sunday, He Arose from the grave victorious over death. God Loved Us that is why He had to do this and Jesus died in order for us to come to Heaven. If you don't already know Christ as your Savior if you pray this simple little prayer you will be forgiven for all your sins and become a child of God, Your name will be written a the lambs Book of Life and when you die God will look for your name, if it is not there God will say He never knew you. Won't you ask Christ into your heart today by repeating this little prayer. Jesus I believe you died for my sins on the cross I ask You to come into my heart and forgive me for all of my sins, I believe you rose from the grave on the third day and still live today and I want to accept You into my heart. If you prayed this little prayer go this Sunday to a church and tell them Becky Sent You, Don't be afraid you won't know anyone. YOUR FATHER IS THERE WAITING FOR YOU. I,LL SAY A LITTLE PRAYER TOO, I'LL TELL MY FATHER YOUR COMING AND HE WILL DO THE REST. Then He gives us a Best Friend to teach us everything we need to know from the moment we accept Christ as our Savior He sends the Holy Spirit to tell us what to do next that is our Best Friend. I hope you sincerely prayed that little prayer, Truly it isn't nearly as complicated as some think, ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS BELIEVE

PEACEFUL

The dictionary defines peaceful not quarrelsome, free from disturbance, calm, of or characteristic of a time for peace. This is my prayer.

Happy Spring

It's here, It's here, SPRING, SPRING! I can't believe it's the first day of spring
I hope everyone enjoys the day, perhaps go to a fish fry this evening, I love Lint, Tons of great fish frys.No word from Cleveland Clinic except I think the Doctor's have decided surgery is not an option, Oh Well, I am TRUSTING My FATHER for help and THANK HIM in advance. Thank-You Lord for SPRING!!!!!

Happy St, Patricks Day

Happy Saint Patricks Day, I would normally make something Irish but not this year, but did enjoy watching other people celebrate on TV. Still looking for Girl Scout cookies, feeling better off my crutches now. Top Of The Mornin To Ya, Beautiful day today went on a long drive in the country, Loved it

My Space

I created a my space page called Indian Squaw, I'm trying to connect with other christian women on line and am having trouble, but learning, I did join CWO but now I have to figure out how to communicate with them ha ha. Marcie's Grandson was in the hospital with C-Diff, I guess he had been on antibiotics and he got diarrhea and became dehydrated and Marcie said 3 people couldn't get him to open his mouth to drink liquids so he had to have IV'S, Marcie flew home to babysit until he can return to the sitters. Pray for Jack, Bless his heart, he is a real sweetie and from what I hear was a wonderful patient on everything but opening his mouth. Bon just got back from Vagas after 6 weeks, which is shorter than last year she was there 3 months last year, she said she didn't win, but last year she won $23000.00. Too bad I don't gamble, Kit broke his tail bone and oddly enough so did his daughter Jacquie, and then of coarse I fell, Can we say the clan is clumsy. Let me see what else is new, My cousin tommy in Wv is pretty sick, he had a heart attack at work and had flat lined and a coworker perform cpr until EMS could arrive, then he had surgery and then he had complications and then he had to had a repeat surgery, He said he is going to get baptised in 12 pole and I told him I wanted to also get baptised in 12 pole, thats where my mom was baptised and I think I better do it again. Love to all, Until next time. About my health, the doctors at Cleveland Clinic said the surgery I need is in a spot that would make matters worse. God will heal me, Thank-You in advance Lord for your healing.

BLACK CLOUD

Well, After tests at the Cleveland Clinic I had to go get an x-ray of my hip from a fall I had taken last week and was afraid to go to the doctor due to the tests at Cleveland (you don't mess with those appointments, they mess up those all by themselves), so I didn't take a chance. LUCKY for me no breaks. but I am on crutches for a little while. Waiting on tests results.

Cleveland Clinic

March is here, Yeah Spring is coming soon. I had 2 procedures today at Cleveland Clinic, I will know later what the next step will be. I wish the doctors could get me feeling better by Spring, I Love Spring. I sat in the hospital today watching people of all sorts walking around, being from living in the country it seems like I am in New york city. ha ha But there sure are alot of people who are sick having tests, procedures. The lab at Cleveland reminds me when I went to Beauty school, alot of girls (SOME LEARNING OUCH) training and the lab room itself had alot of little stations with an instructor advising them on how to cut hair, The young girl did a great job. I sure hope all the doctor appointments, all the testing, all the procedures, all the waiting hopefully is almost over. I want my life back, It has been one year this month since I lost 52lbs for no reason, not wanting to, and eating like a horse, taking tons of Enlive supplement's, and still weighing only 100lbs. I am getting so discouraged. I need your prayers that the doctors will agree on a solution soon better yet YESTERDAY ha ha

The World is coming to an end

I know the world is coming to an end now, My favorite candy store GORANTS went out of business, Every year I looked forward to a scrumptious box of Gorant chocolates, and even better the Wadsworth store always had the candy 90% off after Valentines Day (That's when I really stocked up). OK let me see now, first no Girl scout cookies, No Nickles Bakery Fruitcake, NOW NO GORANTS, Elizabeth it's the big one. Oh yeah to add injury to injury I didn't even get a candy bar for Valentines Day, Come on, everybody deserves at least a candy bar. Bumming in Orrville

My Second Baby

This is my second baby, She made Homecoming attendant for Basketball, Tonight is her big night. What beautiful girls Michele had, Tia was homecoming attendant her junior year for football and now Bre made it her junior year for basketball. I know people, they got their beauty from me.

You Are Loved

These flowers were delivered to me on Tuesday but the card said No Signature, After asking my husband if he had sent them he said no I called a friend and ask if he had sent them and he said no, I thought BUMMER Who would send me flowers and not sign their name especially on mom's Home Going Anniversary I called the florist and ask who had sent them and they said all they could tell me was where they had been sent from. As soon as the gal said where they had been ordered from I KNEW WHO IT WAS.I called the person and said Thank-You for the flowers, How did you know who it was from came across the phone, I explained the florist had told me where they had been sent from and automatically I Knew. It wasn't a cheap act of kindness, Calilillys, white and yellow Daisy's , Iris's and one beautiful pink rose. The words You Are Loved was the only words on the card. I would tell you who this WONDERFUL person is but then the privacy would be broken. Lord Help Me to Be as Thoughtful a Friend as this person was. I do miss mom soo soo much, I cannot believe it has been 13 years in that 13 years mom has been blessed with 11 grandchildren, mostly boys which mom only had girls and would find the boys a special treat and the little girls are so precious she would absolutely be thrilled. As for me I think my mom would be very disappointed in me, I never did listen too good especially when it came to taking medicine and with my current health condition she would kill me for not having a biopsy of my pancreas (Only to find out if I am dying) I can hear myself telling her mom if I'm going to die I'm going to die. The doctors suspect pancreatic cancer ,Its not that I don't care it's the fact that if that is what is wrong with me there is nothing they can do and I am too tired to go thru anymore. Hey Look at the bright side if I'm dying I'll see mom before her next Home Going Anniversary

A Rose In Winter

My little Red Bird is not here today, He was here last week with his lady feeding at the feeder. The snow seemed as if it would not stop yesterday, I thought for sure I would see them again but didn't, I decided to place a rose in the window hoping the couple could remember warmer days. Soon I expect they both will return and I will be watching

Girl Scout Cookie Time

Every year I always bought a case of thin mints, unfortunately this year I don't know a Girl Scout. I remember being a girl scout and in Huntington Wv one Saturday we went to a kitchen at a meeting room and we made NO BAKE COOKIES Oh my goodness I thought I had died and gone to heaven every since that day I have faithfully made those wonderfull cookies, my nephew Gary LOVES them. In Huntington every Saturday our leader would make sure we did something fun or learned something new. I f you know a girl scout be sure to help them out, the little girls are doing a positive good purpose and it keeps them out of trouble GO GIRL SCOUTS. If anyone know anyone in Orrville area let me know where I can pick some up sometimes K=Mart sells them

HAPPY NEW YEAR

This is the first weekend of 2009, The sun is shining, sorta cold but could be worse, sorta bored but could be worse, I know I could be doing something of GREAT IMPORTANCE but for the first weekend of the New Year I'm just going to be content to be Bored. Where do you go? What does other people do on Saturdays? Does everybody Clean on Saturdays, or Bake, or Mend. In case anyone is interested in learning a fun way to clean if you go to www.flylady.com it's a hoot. HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL YOU SATURDAY PEOPLE