I'M NOT GIVING UP

Well....Friends my doctor appointment didn't go too good. The surgeon told me it was up to me whether she did the surgery, she said due to the risk she was going to leave it up to me.I said YOUR THE DOCTOR you should know whether or not to do it and she said she felt I needed the surgery but that it wouldn't fix me completely, or could make me worse, I exclaimed it couldn't be worse she said believe me Becky it could be worse, but she put me on a enzyme for my pancreas to try and absorb more fat, but (I"ve been there done that) but I told her I took an enzyme but thought it was sand she said OH Well Then We will try the powder form (I threw up the sand stuff last year) I stopped at CVS picked up the script only to come home and find IT'S THE SAME SAND I TOOK BEFORE . I called her and she said take it with juice instead of water and come back next week and if I haven't gained 20 lbs by then we would regroup. WHAT THE HAY am I going to do I said Doc if I couldn't gain 10 LBS in 2 years how in this world do you think I can do it in 1 week. She said not to worry the 20 LBS was a leeway for the weight I will loose after surgery GREAT i WILL WEIGHT 80 LBS. LORD HELP ME OR TAKE ME ONE MY MIND SAYS BUT MY HEART SAYS IN DO TIME, SO IN THE MEAN TIME I AM NOT GIVING UP.